July 24th

I will go to sleep early tonight or punish myself severely.

Today I went to church where we volunteered at Vernon Elementary. I cleaned windows and weeded. I was a bit pooped from not sleeping much the night before so I didn't kick but, more like blacked an eye. It was good anyway. Dagmar watched Elanor for me.

I picked Ela up and we got lunch. Bad idea... she's still not ready for restaurant life. Then she and I went home and then back out again to OMSI, had dinner and then went for a walk.

I feel sorta bad that I don't know what to do with us when it's just me and Ela in the house. I have to GET OUT and PASS TIME. I hope that is fun for her and not too chaotic. I just hate sitting there doing the same ol' same ol'. Also, she has been pretty whiny when it's just her and I at home which makes me kinda crazy. I hear there isn't much I can do about it till she's older, but it sucks when she's freaking out over something I can't give her and hits me when I try to console her. Today was pretty good though.

I miss Erik a lot. I didn't realize what a difference in EVERY sense he makes when he's here. I feel lost and listless. I think it's compounded by knowing I've got 2 more weeks to go.

Man, I sound bummed. I need more sleep I think.