Having a baby

There is SO much I've learned about having a baby... I thought I would right some of it down before I forgot it all... like they say you do.

First off, I was surprised at how freaked out I was before going to the hospital. The night/morning before I was VERY tense and anxious. I freaked out and cried. I was so scared about the unknown. I'm grateful for Erik who comforted me. As it turns out it wasn't so bad. I choose ahead of time that I was o.k. with drugs so when my contractions got to the point where I couldn't get thru them silently and with ease I asked for the epidural. That made a huge difference in the whole day. The pushing was rough and it hurt. I wanted to give up and for the pain to stop. However, the instant it's over... it's over. You realize you got through it and you're back on drugs again. I know some folks don't approve of drugs during child birth but I think they are wonderful and am grateful that I gave birth in a time where they were an option. However, I'm not sure I would be induced a second time. I will get to my emotional state after birth in a bit but let me just say there are some who believe pitocin increases the hormone swing after birth and it that is part of what I went thru it wasn't worth it.

I was really surprised at how much I ended up LOVING being in the hospital. I could have stayed in that room for 2 weeks. The nurses at Adventist are amazing and I loved the attention and support we got. Leaving was so much harder than I thought it would be and I cried every time I thought about it for days after...

Oh, got to go feed the baby...